Happy Birthday Babooshka

2 years ago today I was screaming bloody murder on a delivery table as I desperately tried to push my 9 pound princess into this world.......yes I totally just gave you that visual.

I have to say, recently I have had a lot of "a-ha" moments. One of the biggest "a-ha moments came from watching G react to me crying....OK, now I know that may sound really weird so let me explain.

All this emotional cancer stuff with my Papa has been going on and I have been nothing short of a blubbering fool. 

Normally I try and keep my over the top "ugly cry's" down to a bare minimum around G so I don't freak her the fuck out, but the other day she caught me engaging in all types of drama sobs... snotty,ugly,red-faced crying, that is typically reserved for  high school break-ups or when watching Steel Magnolias. Anyways she caught me and did the most touching and sweet thing anyone on the planet earth has ever done.  She came up to my face and put her tiny hands on my cheeks and said 

"woo noo Mama..itty-k Mama sayyd" 

and then she kissed me smack on the mouth. 

My little baby sympathized with me...

that's big girl emotions right there and I am totally vaklempt about it



mommy loves you so much

we are off to Disneyland,
wish me luck!